Thanks for being on-line, there so many peope who need some one to talk to or just to read something to help them, threw this time and threw so many other days. I have been feel or drinking and doing drugs for 8 yr's however, I have learn there is a big difference is being sober and having soberity. I have soberity now and I love my new life, one that I never could have dreamed would have happend. People say that I'm such a good person, that's a frist, I wasn't when I wasn't clean, I has hateful and full of selfpity over my life, I just wanted to die, however I couldn't live and I couldn't die. Then I found AA and a God of my understanding and that works for me, I offer my help to others and try to be the person that I always wanted to be, I just didn't know how till now. So reach out to someone that understand what your going threw and stay close to the winners, then you will be a winner yourself.